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So I’ve been on holiday in England

Sorry for not being around for some time.

I came over with the hope that my mind would clear of clouded vision and I’d see my life in a better light. My mind is clear, most definitely. But this clarity has made me realise my life is a mess. Its so discerning and demotivating. I feel myself trying to create self pity, for example when I get back home, it feels like I don’t want to see anyone, I just want shut myself out.

There’s so much I feel frustrated with myself for and I’m at the point where I’m ready to give up. But that’s not me and I know I can work my way through this. Its a part of my life I just need to embrace. It worries me that I’ve wished to die and be relieved of pain and stress recently, not from suicide, I could never do that.

Its been awesome getting away and having a holiday and feeling the present moment, but towards the end of this trip, what’s left of my ego has crept through and given my mind a kick saying “hey look at your future for a second”.

I’m just done with all my fucking stupid choices. It feels like I need to restart everything, but I know this is a wound that will heal and build my character.
Oh well, onward and upward, embrace the race, eh?

"Don’t think of introversion as something that needs to be cured…Spend your free time the way you like, not the way you think you’re supposed to."

- Susan Cain (via vintage-adventures)

(Source: ciuin)

"The only way out is through."

- Fritz Perls  (via tuileries)

(Source: shadowpsychology)

"I feel empty, but the good kind. Like there’s new things I will find to fill me again."

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don’t date anyone who isn’t proud of you